I Just Cant

Ive had some requests for posts on the month of July...I just cant people...

Im not in a good place right now...I'm upset really upset. I hate that I am this upset I mean after all we are all alive well I guess that's not true either...

I miss my Father in law...
I miss fighting with him...who would have thunk it...
I miss him for my husband and for the girls...I to miss hearing him say hi a pumpkin to both of them
I miss my house...even though I always said I never liked it that much
I miss that it used to at least feel like home
I miss windows and doors that work the way they should
I miss it smelling like Front Porch Candles and not mold and yuck.
I miss a sense of security...right now it just seems like our lives are up in the air...we could have to move..we could have to stay, we could, we could, we could..
I miss giving chances to members of Daniels family...I'm done. Thats sad...but life is to sort to fall in line with people who are filled with hate. I hope one day they can solve their hate and love until then though I'm done, we are done.

this year is completely ridiculous, it really really is.

I keep thinking God only gives you what you can handle...but I'm starting to wonder if he went on vacation and left things on auto pilot!? If not I cant wait to see the stronger and more faithful person he shapes me into...but for today I'm just plain upset